I love shopping at NTUC! i get to buy groceries and my favourite yakult!

I feel really demoralised at work! Coz I think everyone is smarter than me and can work better than me! I think I am very lousy at my work and I have no idea how to become better. I think my bosses think I'm useless and not of good standard. I really wish to do well at work.

I want to be someone who helps the company achieve excellence, efficiency, results, etc etc!! Not because I want to be promoted to become a manger or director but because i want to be recognised! I want people to know that I am GOOD! Sigh... but apparently I am not! I am absolutely useless!

HOW??? Studying further (MBA or MAsters in Finance) won't really help right?

Anyway, I want to study MBA or Masters in Finance overseas! If I don't perform well at work they may not sponsor me for my further studies. I wish to study at US or UK and experience the life there.

I met a few friends last night (12 midnight!) at Happy Daze. They were my secondary school good friends. In those days, they were considered "bad" friends. But I have never gotten into trouble with them before. No matter what they did (skip classes, steal, cheat, rude to teacher,etc) they have never forced me to do they same.

I always wondered how come I didn't succumb to peer pressure? As in if all your friends behaved in a certain way, why did you not behave the same way so that they will accept you?

It could be due to various reasons:
~ I was a scaredy cat who was afraid of getting into trouble or hurting myself
~ I didn't want to let my family down since they had such high hopes of me
~ I didn't want to let my teahers down since they had such a good impression of me

Then what went wrong with them? Such that they would turn out this way? Did they not face the same fears that I had?

True enough, most of my friends had family issues. They either didn't have a complete family, not too well off and felt inferior to others, or too well off and didn't care about their studies. I didn't have those problems.

Sometimes I wish I had never taken part in their actions. Because it seemed exciting and would have been fun to have such memories! Even now, they are still a very happening bunch of friends. People whose lives are colourful (full of stories to tell but not necessary good stories to tell) unlike me.

This brings me to another dilemma:
Do I wnt a "happening" life (but life will be really complicated) OR a "normal" life which I very often complain about?

From the looks of it. I have chosen the latter.

 

Dad: "Why you go handbell for? you only play a few misearble times"

Sis: "Ahhh... shut up lar!"

How rude! How can a daughter call her dad to shut up? But come to think of it. I do that too to mum. So who am I to say she was rude. So was I!

Ok. I admit dad was rather irritating to provoke my sis like that. But following the principles of "RESPECT THY ELDERS" it didn't seem appropriate to tell your parents to shut up.

I remember going through then stage when I hated it when my mum wants to control everything I do. Not allowing me to go out or go out later than I wish, or mixing with friends whom I enjoy hanging out with. I simply hated it!

Even now I'm still easily irriated when someone tells me to eat more, eat breakfast, sleep early, etc. But I somewhat understand how she feels as a parent. Because it's just about the same way as I feel about my sister. As an adult (or so i claim) who has watched my sister grow up, I really hope she doesn't take the wrong track. Because I will feel partly responsible if she does.

Yesterday, I saw on newspaper about a 31 year old guy who died. Reportedly it was suicide as witnesses claimed that he was pacing up and down near the track and jump down when the train came.

Today, I saw it on news again and the wife claimed he was ill (giddy and all that) and it may not have been suicide.

LIFE IS SHORT
Two schools of thought:

Be a career woman and earn lots of money to enjoy anything and everything i want.

Spend my time doing things that are most worth doing and not necessary concentrating on the materialistic aspect.

 

Once upon a time I decided to try out facial. Honestly, I have never regretted since. Though it is expensive, but everytime I go, I leave the place feeling relax and "clean". 

I was quite irritated in the beginning when they try to make me by their super deal plan ($1800 for 20 sessions which will include some special treatment). It was so bad that I promised not to bring any cash nor card when I go for facial so that no matter how much they try to persuade me, I'll just say "I'll think about it because I didn't bring any money today!"

Right now I feel that I've got a good deal. I paid a total of $600 for 20 sessions. I hope it stops there.

This is how my facial procedure goes:

1) Cleansing and facial and neck scrub
2) Hand, neck and back message (sometimes they even clean my feet)
3) Hot/Cold steamer or scrubber (which removes dead skin cells)
4) Face massage

I hate it when my boyfriend goes to basketball and takes my car. I can't go anywhere and have to wait for him to come back at 3-4pm. By then my stomach is growling and I've wasted half a day doing nothing at home. I wish he didn't take my car, then i could have gone to the library or shopping or something. Now I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooo BoREd & HuNGrY! Nevermind, i shall skip lunch today and hopefully lose some weight.


PS: I managed to sell my pins this morning at the Serangoon Gardens market. So my strategy worked! Some people are really willing to help the charities! Ain't that great?

I went for a teambuilding course on 22/7/2004.

A teambuilding course as the name tells you, is for a team to come together during this course to build up their relationship. At the same time, it may be a chance for everyone to identify what are their common goals.

I still can't believe i volunteered for that! Even though it is for a good cause. But I remembered saying that I HAD enough of selling flags and selling collar pins IS like selling flags!!

I've decided to go to the market tomorrow morning to sell the collar pins tomorrow. And this is my plan:

Met many friends in town today! That's fun... long time no see them. Watched Harry Porter And the Prsoner of Azkaban. I thought it was great, though I was rather confused about the story at some times. After watching it, I really felt like reading the book because I think there are some missing links which made me confused (that's why).